whatever went away, I'll get over it now
2014-08-28 2:15 p.m.
Everyone needs some space in their day to keep breathing. Resolution - I will take that space for my dreams and not clutter it up with other people's stories.
My daughter had formula for the first time today and the world did not end. For sure I will not be able to keep up with her demand, but I'm not going to kill myself to try, and I won't feel bad. Formula is easier for MK anyway and I need to start getting my life back.
The good part about going back to work is having some structure. The young women who work for me - six and soon to be seven of them - are absolute dolls. I handpicked almost every one of them, they are sweet and thoughtful and hardworking and they'd do anything I asked them to because they like me. It's kind of hard to be a mom at home and at work, though - they do treat me that way.
Today is so much better it's not even funny. I'm still struggling but I can slow down for a minute, and I accomplished so much already. I had a hard workout and I finished and could have even done a little more. The difference is that I didn't feel paralyzed. When the kids are here, or anyone else, I don't feel free to move around my own space. The kids went out with the sitter today into their own lives, my son riding bitch in the double stroller. I'm not texting to see how the baby's doing, I miss her like crazy - crazy! But I know she's fine and I need this day for me. Look how sweet she is, my little girl, my sunshine.